do i still have to ask for signs...

that is what i have been thinking lately. the question now is do i really have to ask for signs when what i really feel deep insided is to go back home. in case you would want to know where i am as of this writing, i am currently in dubai working in an automobile company selling cars for export. specifically, i am the person in charge for cars purchased for Iraq. for the last 4 months that i have been with this company, i have always thought that of leaving the job and go back home and start again in the banking industry where i have been working for the past 11 years. although i don't have a guarantee that i will be able to go back to the same company that i worked with for the longest time, it is my desire to go back in the same industry where i think i would flourish professionally. or that is how i believe where i should be. now, i think it is too late to ask for signs if i should stay or not. i mean, it has been agreed already by my boss that i can now go, even if the person who i am supposed to replace will come back or not. the misgivings that i am feeling lately is due to the fact that i will be going back home kinda failed in my desire to make it big here in dubai.not only that, i am also thinking of the loss in investment that i will incur should i decide to go back home. The worst thing that i have to consider is, the money that i have squandered is not mine, but that of my mother's which she painstakingly saved over the years. oh boy, what would that make me? i can be easily likened to the prodigal son. ain't that a shame?